When I was a junior in high school, I decided what I wanted to be when I grew up. I went to college and graduated in 3 1/2 years. (yes, I'm bragging.) I taught 2nd grade last year, it was hard, but I made it through and decided to switch to what my degree is in and teach special education.
Oh...my...gosh...
Why didn't my professors warn me? Why didn't they tell me how absolutely hard it would be? I'm sure they did but I obviously WASN'T listening, all I could think about was changing the world and saving every child - which was really my life goal when I graduated :) But now, I dream about special education. Nightmares, I should say nightmares - I have nightmares about special education. I toss and turn all night while special education jargon and random strategies/methods fly through my head. I have nightmares that parents are mad at me (which they are when I'm awake), I see teachers saying rude things to me (which they have) and I dream that I have no data on any of my kiddos (this, thankfully is NOT true!) Yes, my dream profession has become a nightmare.
Ok, now for the bright side. I love working and playing with kids. They are cute and hilarious, and they make me smile. They love to laugh, play, and do anything fun. I do have wonderful co-workers, mentors, and bosses who are an amazing support system. I have made wonderful friends within my job. It is very rewarding to watch a child progress and catch on to something you've worked on for weeks. I love having the oppportunity to work with so many wonderful people and so many amazing children.
But seriously...why didn't someone smack me and say, "Tiffanie, it's going to be REALLY hard! You might REALLY hate your job!"
I don't think anyone can fully understand the challenges of being a special ed. teacher unless they've done it. It is unlike any job I have ever had and I am so happy to be a stay at home mom now. I do have good memories too, but I feel for you. You are great, your kiddos are lucky to have you.
ReplyDeleteTiffanie- I know what you mean. This career choice is not easy...but it is definitely worth it. Just remember that you are making a difference...those kids need you! I know you are doing a great job.
ReplyDeletethus why i became a k teacher... lol.
ReplyDeleteOh Tiff I admire you for fulfilling what you set out to do in the first place. You go for it regardless of what people say. Me on the other hand backout because I am a wuss. You will get the hang of things and be so glad that you did it. I'm so proud of you, and i can just picture you and i'm sure the kids adore you.
ReplyDeleteI feel exactly like you do sometimes, and then there are days that are totally worth it. Hope you are in survival mode like I am :)
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